I wish I was a romantic
I wish that I could soak up the blind hope
that shines in your eyes when you look at me.
As though simple was as simple says
and real life didn’t mean that we could have to face a lot of fucked up challenges.
I wish that my heart wasn’t built on tough and bitter
That my eyes hadn’t become desensitized to lies and shitty attempts at love
That I grew up knowing what real love was and wasn’t scarred and damn near terrified to try it.
I make it harder than it probably should be
Because hard is the only way it makes sense to me
I am shaken by the ease of us
like the backwards person that I am.
But I do wish,
I sometimes wish, that I could sit here,
in front of you for a moment,
and pretend that we could get through it all,